Tuesday, January 3, 2017


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I got on the scale this morning and it showed 253 pounds…

I am so disgusted with myself…

At my highest weight, in August 2008, I was 305 pounds. This was when I got married. I HATE my wedding picture. I didn’t buy a normal wedding dress, I ordered two dresses off the internet because I wasn’t sure which one would fit. I felt so ugly and fat. I tried after that. I lost a bunch of weight and got to about 260 pounds when I was 35 (in 2013). Then I gained it back and hit 280 pounds. So in January 2015, we decided to try Nutrisystem. I lost 71 pounds. I was 209 pounds at my lowest in November 2015. Then we stopped doing Nutrisystem. We said we could do it ourselves. We went to different diets and ways of eating. We tried Nutrisystem again. I gained almost all of it back. I can not believe this happened. If we had just stayed on Nutrisystem in November 2015, I would probably be at goal now. I am so disgusted.

Sometimes, I want to give up, just give in to the fact that I am fat. Food tastes good. I enjoy eating it. Diet food is boring and I hate being hungry. But then I think about not being healthy. I am going to be 40 years old in October of this year. I am so scared about that. I want to be a mother. I want to be a normal weight, not skinny, I have never wanted to be skinny, I just want to be healthy.

So we start over. We started Nutrisystem again on 1/2/2017. I will be walking and MOVING more. I need to do this. I have to do this. I want to do this.


Never again.

Sunday, January 1, 2017

New Year's Resolutions 2017

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Wednesday, December 14, 2016

Weekly Downsizing Me Check In - 12/14/2016

Date - 12/14/2016

Week Start Weight - 243

Week End Weight - Yeah, no...

So I will be taking a break until the new year. With holidays it is hard. I will try my damnedest (is that even a word) to eat right and get some movement during the day. But it is too hard to keep track right now. See you in the new year with a new format and some new content (Planner Obsession!!)

Sunday, December 11, 2016

December Blog Challenge - My Favorite Christmas Movies

So yesterday was music, today is movies...

Doing this post, I realized that I have never seen some of the "classic" christmas movies... Something that I will (eventually) remedy. but for now, here are some of my favorites...

Home Alone

Christmas Vacation

The Santa Clause

How The Grinch Stole Christmas

Mickey's Christmas Carol

The Holiday



What are your favorite christmas movie, I am making a list (and checking... not really).

Saturday, December 10, 2016

December Blog Challenge - My Favorite Christmas Carols

I missed a few days, it has been busy and time has flown, plus I have a new OBSESSION that has taken me away from the blog...

As I mentioned in my 100 Things I Love post, I love Christmas Music. I could listen to it all year long. I don't, but I could!! While I love all Christmas Music, I do have my favorites. This is the list of those favorites. I have included links to some YouTube videos of the songs sung by some of my favorite artists... (you will also learn that I am SLIGHTLY fixated on Pentatonix)


What Child Is This

Silent Night

 Mary, Did You Know?

The Little Drummer Boy

Do You Hear What I Hear?

Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas

O Holy Night

Carol Of The Bells

My Favorite Things

God Rest Ye Merry Gentleman

I Want A Hippopotamus For Christmas

That's Christmas To Me

Dance Of The Sugar Plum Fairy (this has no words, yet Pentatonix does a video, go figure!!!)

What are some of your favorite Christmas/Holiday Songs?