Back Again, Again!!!

Wow…

Its been a long time…

Like 6 months…

The Healthy Before 40 didn’t work out to well…

So, let’s try getting HEALTHY @ 40!!!!

I will be turning 40 years old tomorrow. I need to get healthier.

If you have been following me for a while, you know that I have been through a lot... kidney stones, cancer, surgeries... but now I have been having heart issues. It is a wake up call that NEEDS to be listened to.

So, I need to get healthy. Its a matter of life and death.

Stick around and help me, encourage me and kick my ass when I need it.

Downsizing Me Log - 5/12/2016

Date - 5/12/2016

What I Ate Today -

• Breakfast - Nutrisystem Peanut Butter Breakfast Bar and Strawberry Cheesecake greek yogurt
• AM Snack - Wrap with laughing cow cheese wedge and ham
• Lunch - Nutrisystem White Cheddar Mac and Cheese with Hebrew National 99% fat free hot dogs and broccoli/tomatoes, yum!!!
• Dinner - we went out, I had a French Dip sandwich and fries with a salad, then I cam home and had a cookie... it was a rough afternoon and evening 

Eating on Track Today - No

Comments - I am having some more issues, went to Urgent Care yesterday and have a pinched nerve (they think) which is causing tingling and numbness in my leg. Then this afternoon while sitting at work, I had a sharp pain in my side. I have a cyst on my one remaining ovary and all I could think about was that it was something to do with that. Called the doctor's office, but haven't heard back from them. i am scheduled for an ultrasound to check out the cyst but it is not until the beginning of June. I feel so helpless, because I know something is off but it takes six weeks to see anybody about it...so frustrated.

Downsizing Me Log - 5/11/2016

Date - 5/11/2016

Weigh In - well, i didn't get on the scale at home, but the doctor's scale this afternoon said 227, that was fully dressed and about 12.30p

What I Ate Today - Well, it was a bad food day, I had some NS for breakfast and lunch and dinner, but then we ate candy, lots and lots of candy... new day tomorrow

Eating on Track Today - uh, No

Comments - Ended up at Urgent Care today. Been having a very strange sensation on and off in my left leg for a couple weeks (actually more). tingling and numbness, not really pain but just weird. Last night, I had a full blown panic attack and almost went to the ER. calmed down enough to lay down and sleep but today, figured I better figure it out. I was so scared that I had a blood clot. I had a coworker (younger than me) who recently suddenly passed away from a blood clot so I was freaking out. Doctor at urgent care told me it sounds like a pinched nerve. Assured me that the symptoms do not match a blood clot. No swelling, pain, redness or heat in my leg. I feel so much better. Hoping it will get better now that we know what it is. Other health stuff going on, don't need to add a blood clot to it!

Downsizing Me Log - 5/2/2016

Date - 5/2/2016

100% Day - 2

Weigh In - didn't weight

Exercise - No

Eating On Track Today - Yes

Water Intake - 100oz

Blood Sugar Readings - forgot

What I Ate Today -

• Breakfast - Nutrisystem Chocolate Biscotti Bites and Toasted Coconut Vanilla Dannon Light and Fit Greek Yogurt with coffee and Caramel Silk Almond milk creamer
• AM Snack - Triscuits with Ham
• Lunch - Nutrisystem Steak and Cheese Melt with lots of veggies (kind of a lettuce-less salad) and Bolthouse Ranch dressing
• Dinner - Nutrisystem Chicken Fettuccine Alfredo with broccoli, onions and salmon
• Late Snack - Nutrisystem Chocolate Cake with berries and a little whipped cream  

Comments - I didn't go to work today. It was a rough night... around dinner time last night, my older dog started to have some issues with his hind legs. We had this same issue with the other dog not 10 days ago. He couldn't get up, had trouble walking and we ended up at the Emergency Vet. They couldn't find anything wrong and he seemed better by the time we saw the doctor. We came home and watched him for a while, then we went to bed. Oh, to add to it, he is having really watery bowel movements (i know, too much info). Hubby is going to watch him tomorrow and may take him to the regular vet for some tests. I am so scared, I don't know what has caused both of our dogs to have the exact same symptoms (hind quarter weakness, not being able to walk or even stand) for a couple hours and then be fine, 10 days apart... Any ideas? We have thought of environmental (we just moved into a new house and are wondering if it is something in the environment, a new plant, someone doing something, etc) or possibly something ingested, bad food, or human pills (we are all really careful, but accidents happen)... I just don't know... and now I hold my breath any time either one of them gets up...

Downsizing Me Log - 4/21/2016

Date - 4/21/2016

Weigh In - 232.4

Exercise - None

Eating On Track Today - Yes

Water Intake - ???

Blood Sugar Readings - ???

What I Ate Today -

• Breakfast - Nutrisystem Nutriflake Cereal with almond milk and toast with butter, oh, also coffee
• AM Snack - 2 cheesesticks and grapes
• Lunch - Nutrisystem Steak and Cheese Melt
• PM Snack - Triscuits and Laughing Cow cheese
• Dinner - Nutrisystem Chicken Bacon Ranch Pizza and BIG salad
• Late Snack - Nutrisystem Milk Chocolate Flavored Pretzels  

Comments -Had a bit of an animal emergency this morning...ended up in the vets office at 7am... One of my dogs (the red one) had an incident this morning, he got up and started to walk towards me, but his leg gave out... he could hardly walk and kept falling down. He calmed down a bit but still having issues, went to the vet and they could not really find anything wrong, just did a physical exam, no bloodwork or Xrays yet. Vet said that it probably was not something torn or broken, because there was no swelling and by the time we were seen, he could put full weight on it without issue. May have been a seizure (OMG, i hope not) or possibly just muscle fell asleep... but it was so scary!! Went to work late since I wanted to make sure he was okay... I hope that NEVER happens again.

Last box of Nutrisystem!!!

Well, we got the last shipment of Nutrisystem!!!!

I'm sad and excited and scared all at the same time. It is time for us to try this on our own. I know we can do this, we have had 8 months to learn about portions and calories and the need for exercise. We are not going to be completely on our own. We have about 2 1/2 months worth of Nutrisystem food that we are going to use, but we will be interspersing our own food to try it out.

We get to cook!!!!!!!

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I remember when we would make dinner and it would be enough to feed like 8 people, and between the 3 of us (me, hubby and hubby's dad) it would all be consumed, maybe having some for lunch the next day. As long as we do not go back to cooking (and eating) like that, I think we will be okay. I will still plan my meals the night before. I will still bring my lunch to work. I just will not be eating Nutrisystem food.

Oh, no!!! What have we done!!!!!

Blog Challenge - Day 8

Things that make me scared…


This is a hard one for me as no one likes to think about the things that scare them. I have this phobia of it, in my mind, if I think about these things too long or often, they may happen. But on the other hand, if you know what your fears are, they are more likely to be able to be dealt with, right?

My first major fear is losing my family. Whether it be my hubby, my mom or anyone else in my immediate (or not so immediate) circle. I guess this fear boils down to a fear of being alone. No one wants to be alone. I have my family and that keeps me going.

My second major fear is losing my health. I had not really worried about this (for real) until last year when I was going through all the health stuff. It was the first time my health had been an issue. At this moment, I am better and all of the issues have gone away, but what if they haven’t. What if I go to the doctor next week and he finds something…or in 6 months…or in 2 years. This scares the hell out of me.

Another major fear is that I will never have my own family. I am 37 years old, my hubby is 42 years old. I really want a family, however, I am beginning to think that this will not happen. First, because of my health (one ovary gone and the other in trouble). Second, because we are getting up there in years… Third, PAIN!!! I know that it is painful to have a baby and I am not that big on pain, or throwing up! Morning sickness scares me!

I also have the little fears, you know, the normal ones…strangers, bugs, spiders (yes, they deserve their own category)…

Then there are the other fears, things that I cannot control… like losing control. I hate to be the passenger in a car because I am not in control. Not that the same things couldn’t happen if I was driving but… Can you imagine how I am if I have to get on an airplane (that’s why I drive everywhere).