Here We Go Again... Again... Again... oh, you get it...

So we have to do something... 

Neither hubby nor I want to cook, we buy the food and then it just sits there and then we throw it away... So we are going back to EASY... 

 

This is to get started while we wait for the actual monthly shipment. Hubby is going on a business trip and when he is gone, I usually eat like crap, so... Nutrisystem KickStart box here I come. Shelf stable food, which is not the best tasting, but easy and this box has most of my favorites. I lost 90 pounds a few years ago doing Nutrisystem and I am hoping to lose some more... I still have about 80 pounds to go...

Well, here we go again, again... about 6 times again actually... but this time we HAVE TO, health is the most important and ours is not the best. 

Stick around, will ya?

Moving On... For Now

So I did a week of low carb, then I had a bagel. My hubby never got on the low carb train this time so it was hard. So now we are going to do something different, just portion control and tracking... at least for now.

I did lose some weight since the holidays, I went to the doctor last week and was pleasantly surprised that I weighted less than before the holidays... actually to the point that the nurse asked me what my secret was! 😀

So, it was a crazy week, stress at work, stress at home and crazy back issues, different day/different issue. So now I need to focus on what I am doing. I will be trying to take pictures of what I am eating, not sure that I will do the daily logs but at least try to post most days. I would like to go back to the overnight oats for breakfast and salad a couple of times a week (but not too much as salad does not get along with my digestion.

I also bought a yoga mat and bricks and would like to start doing that, I have Prime Video, Hulu and Netflix so hoping there are some good yoga videos out there, oh, YouTube on my TV is amazing!

I'm also gonna look back at some of the old posts, tweak a few, do some new ones and see where this takes me. Stick around, won't you?

Didn't Get Off To A Great Start!

Well, that didn't go well... we had no food in the house (great planning, I know). So, I did okay at work, mostly... but then...

Yeah, lets just say there were nachos involved...

Tomorrow is another day.

Here I Am... AGAIN!

So here we are again... but this time, it is for life... MY LIFE to be exact.

I turned 41 a couple of months ago, you know when people say your body changes after 40... they are not kidding! I have pains in places I never knew I had. I can't breathe, of course I have gained back all the weight I lost a couple years ago... I have to do this or I feel that I am not going to make it.

So I decided to come back here, do the Weight Loss Journey and the Downsizing Me Log again... It can't hurt and maybe I can inspire some of you along the weigh... See what I did there!

Stick around!

Back Again, Again!!!

Wow…

Its been a long time…

Like 6 months…

The Healthy Before 40 didn’t work out to well…

So, let’s try getting HEALTHY @ 40!!!!

I will be turning 40 years old tomorrow. I need to get healthier.

If you have been following me for a while, you know that I have been through a lot... kidney stones, cancer, surgeries... but now I have been having heart issues. It is a wake up call that NEEDS to be listened to.

So, I need to get healthy. Its a matter of life and death.

Stick around and help me, encourage me and kick my ass when I need it.

OMG

255.9

Oh. My. God! What the hell have I done. 

I got on the scale this morning because I am starting back on track today. It said 255.9 (which was better than a split second before when it said 257). I weighed 209 in November 2015. I have gained back almost 50 pounds in a year and a half. I want to throw up. 

But, we start again… I have to get healthier. I hurt all over. My back kills me all the time. I have no energy and don’t want to DO anything. I have stomach issues. I am done with this. We prepped meals this weekend and I will be counting calories and exercising (at least trying). 

If you could give me all the support you can spare I would appreciate it.

First (well, you know) Downsizing Me Log comes next week…

Stick around and check it out.

April 1 2017 - Let's Do This!!!

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OMG...

April 1^st…

Time goes so fast. I remember saying in October that I was going to get healthy before I turn 40 this October. That was almost 6 months ago…

And it has not gone well. I have gained back 40 pounds since losing all the weight in 2015 (NOT all in the last 6 months!!). I only have a few things that I can wear. I am tired all the time and I don’t want to do anything.

So, we start again. I am not starting over because I will NEVER get back to where I was when I started (305 pounds in 2008). I have 6 months to get as healthy as I can before I turn 40. I know that I can not get to goal in this time frame. I know it will not be perfect, but it will be a start.

I am starting a Health Journal, I have become obsessed with planners and the planning world so what better way to keep track of my health and fitness then to combine my desire to be healthier with my passion for planners! . I need to figure out what will work for me (and hubby) food-wise, exercise-wise and just life-wise. I will be going back to my weekly blog posts about my weight and food. I will be also including some posts on my Planner Life and the possibility of opening my own Sticker Store!!!!

Life goes on and moves at what seems like warp speed. But I would love for it to slow down, even just a little.

Stick around and join me!

Guess who's back... back again...and again...and again!!!

253...

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253…

I got on the scale this morning and it showed 253 pounds…

I am so disgusted with myself…

At my highest weight, in August 2008, I was 305 pounds. This was when I got married. I HATE my wedding picture. I didn’t buy a normal wedding dress, I ordered two dresses off the internet because I wasn’t sure which one would fit. I felt so ugly and fat. I tried after that. I lost a bunch of weight and got to about 260 pounds when I was 35 (in 2013). Then I gained it back and hit 280 pounds. So in January 2015, we decided to try Nutrisystem. I lost 71 pounds. I was 209 pounds at my lowest in November 2015. Then we stopped doing Nutrisystem. We said we could do it ourselves. We went to different diets and ways of eating. We tried Nutrisystem again. I gained almost all of it back. I can not believe this happened. If we had just stayed on Nutrisystem in November 2015, I would probably be at goal now. I am so disgusted.

Sometimes, I want to give up, just give in to the fact that I am fat. Food tastes good. I enjoy eating it. Diet food is boring and I hate being hungry. But then I think about not being healthy. I am going to be 40 years old in October of this year. I am so scared about that. I want to be a mother. I want to be a normal weight, not skinny, I have never wanted to be skinny, I just want to be healthy.

So we start over. We started Nutrisystem again on 1/2/2017. I will be walking and MOVING more. I need to do this. I have to do this. I want to do this.

253…

Never again.

Weekly Downsizing Me Check In - 12/7/2016 (Taco Salad)

Date - 12/7/2016

Week Start Weight - 247

Week End Weight - 243

Weekly Downsizing Me Check In - 11/30/2016 (THANKSGIVING!!! - Leftover Turkey Casserole)

Date - 11/30/2016

Week Start Weight - 239

Week End Weight - 247

Weight Change - I don't want to talk about it...

Weekly Downsizing Me Check In - 11/23/2016 (Ham and Ranch Mac and Cheese)

Date - 11/23/2016

Week Start Weight - 236.9lbs

Week End Weight - 239

Weight Change - I don't want to talk about it... 😔😞

Weekly Downsizing Me Check In - 11/16/2016 (Chunky Monkey Overnight Oats)

Date - 11/16/2016

Week Start Weight - 237.7lbs

Week End Weight - 236.9lb

Weight Change - -0.8lbs (6.4 total) its a small amount but I'll take it!!

Weekly Downsizing Me Check In - 11/9/2016 (Ham Kung Pao Noodles)

Date - 11/9/2016

Week Start Weight - 240.3lbs

Week End Weight - 237.7lbs

Weight Change - -2.6lbs (5.6 total)

Weekly Downsizing Me Check In - 11/2/2016 (Buffalo Chicken Mac and Cheese)

Date - 11/2/2016

Week Start Weight - 242.3 lbs

Week End Weight - 240.3 lbs

Weight Change - -2 lbs (3lbs total)

Weekly Downsizing Me Check In - 10/26/2016 (PB&J Overnight Oats)

Date - 10/26/2016

Week Start Weight - 243.3lbs

Week End Weight - 242.3lbs

Weight Change - -1 lb

Birthday... and the rest of my life...

OH MY GOSH!!! Today I turn 39...

It has been MONTHS since I have posted. It has been a long couple of months, yet, it has flown by... funny how that works.

I have been having some anxiety/depression issues. It has made me not care about anything, including eating right, exercising and taking care of myself.

THAT STOPS NOW...

I have to do something. I don't feel good, like ever... I am running out of clothes since I got rid of all my "fat clothes" last year. I have gained about 40 pounds back since stopping Nutrisystem earlier this year. So, last night, we reordered Nutrisystem. I lost like 80 pounds on that and hubby lost 100. We are going back. We know how to do it this time and have the committment. WE HAVE TO.

So, my pledge to myself is this -

I WILL GET HEALTHY BY MY 40TH BIRTHDAY. 

I have a year, stick around and watch me do it!

Downsizing Me Log - 8/16/2016

Date - 8/16/2016

Water Intake - 64oz (I need to get back on track with this)

What I Ate Today -

• First Meal - Brats with mixed veggies and a little mayo
• Snack - mixed nuts
• Second Meal - Salad with avocado and Blue Cheese dressing
• Snack - Pistachios
• Third Meal - Pork and mixed veggies with some sour cream along with Nut Butter Loaf and butter
• Dessert - One square of dark chocolate and peanut butter (forgot to take a picture, tried to justify eating it again...)

Eating On Track Today - Yes

Comments - Headache all day, wondering if it is after the burrito this weekend, or it could be that it is almost that time...

Downsizing Me Log - 8/15/2016

Date - 8/15/2016

Weigh In - 234 (sad face)

Water Intake - 72oz

Blood Sugar Readings - 126 (another sad face)

What I Ate Today -

• First Meal - Meatloaf, mixed veggies, Nut Butter Loaf with butter and some beef bone broth
• Snack - mixed nuts
• Snack - pistachios
• Second Meal - Salmon, mixed veggies with a laughing cow cheese wedge and some avocado

Eating On Track Today - Yes

Comments - Carb meal yesterday, I was craving a burrito so we had it for lunch. I have been eating Keto for several weeks but not lost any weight (I lose then gain then lose then gain, etc). I am wondering if it is because I have been eating alot of things with sugar alcohols. So I have decided to try again, this time without all that sweet stuff... I still use Stevia in my coffee but no more Maltitol and that crap...

I know I have been lax lately, it has been really hard since losing my puppy, but I have been eating Keto, just not documenting...Gonna start doing that more.

We are planning to start a YouTube channel (well the channel exists, but there is nothing on it)... Will let you know...